jet lag

jet lag
lagging behind
now
caught up

I'm 4 espresso shots in and still about to fall asleep.

sleep is far away

It had been a long weekend but a good one. The lack of sleep was starting to show as soon as he got to work. How was he supposed to get through this day? The coffee pot called, but memories of the near panic attacks... Perhaps some tea. He felt better totally clear of caffeine, even when tired, but today there was so much he wanted to get done. These were not tasks that could handle a sleepy deprived brain. Maybe just today. Just one cup. Or one sip. Or decaf? That has some caffeine in it. At least he could pretend.

Sleep is a way too common theme on this blog, but you are supposed to write what you know.

word string

sleep sleep snooze along the river of dreams into a wakefulness without the BEEP BEEP BEEP down in the brain under the low weeping willows floating up into a joy lost beyond the waking dream subway ride over ragged rocks in holy fields to crushing rushing waterpaths in ultraspeed of destination

Hello, Lucky!

weak/strong

this perfectionist streak
is making me weak
time to remember
"i don't know"

Have a great weekend everyone!

good morning, monday

what did i do
that made my body so tired
so sleepy
so unable to get by
on five hours
the weekend was not
especially hard
or active
perhaps the sun that burned
the top of my torso
has increased the need
for rest
and healing
or the hormone fluctuations
that make simple disappointments explode
into tears of utter loneliness
could that be it?

Usually going to bed at midnight is enough for me to wake up rested, especially on a Monday. Apparently this is not a hard and fast rule.

new fallen war

great swells over shouts
static disintegrating into voice into words
run
there is war
run
bubbles pop
air released and lost
new roadblocks littering from feet to horizon
frozen
acrid smell urgent touch
undecided choice
creates survival
on the road of disappearances

I don't even know if this makes any sort of sense. I will sleep someday.

end of the

jessie spano rears her hydra head
no time
never time
perfect plans thwarted by imperfect
roads buses schedules
and three more things to check off
before bed
or not

can i stay awake
or get up in the morning
how much time do i really need
what is flexibility

excited suns will set over lingering moons
and songs will wait until
ripening time gives them their cue
tomorrow comes without care
of a list

bodies beg for rest and must be obeyed

I just got back from Texas, but I still need a vacation. A real one. November cannot get here fast enough.

when pussy won't sleep

my pussy makes me crazy
she's been bad, the house is a mess
that band she can't give up
she plays it and plays it and plays it
over over over over over over over over over over over
and just looks at me
when i groan
when i moan
when i'm done
she still wants to play
reason and logic and visual aids
can't make her stop
won't make her stop
begging and pleading
no change of mind
she just keeps going until she
pops her top

My cat likes to play late at night when I'm trying to sleep. Occasionally, this is a problem. But that's not what I'm talking about in these lines at all.

the mta is the uber-taint

i think the mta is a bunch of sadistic fucks.

you and everyone else.

the alerts they send are either annoying or not useful.

yes.

and i can't tell you how many days i've rushed out of my house when i wanted to sleep a little longer just to end up standing on a platform for forever and end up late to work anyway.

me too.

if i'm going to be late, i'd rather get the sleep.

but you wouldn't have the good excuse.

true. (pause) and the fare increases! what the fuck? i'm going to have to pay more to get crappier service.

i know.

i'm getting a bike. i'm just going to ride to work. all the other hipsters are doing it. i'll take the train when the weather sucks.

which for you is any time it's below 50.

i'll get use to it.

sure.

why can't it just work the way i want it to!

Well, I had a shitty commute this morning. How are you doing?