blood thieves

racing heartbeat and labored breathing
rising panic
trying to stay in control
trying to stay conscience
though there is something
pleasant
in fainting
peaceful really
for a moment
releasing the stress brought
by the simple
prick of a needle

I have a serious problem with needles. I know where it comes from, and I don't pass out as much as I used to (I don't let myself now that I know the signs). I have a doctor's appointment today, and I'm pretty sure there will be blood taken.