HAPPY BLOGOVERSARY TO ME!

today, insanemonade is one year old!

after a year and some thought, this blog is going to become more than just fiction and (bad) poetry. those types of writing will still be part of the fabric of insanemonade, but i want to incorporate my other interests in here.

thank you for reading!

changes

decisions decisions
changes swept into moving forward
here is here and now
when is there?

So much going on...

noticing

noticing
is the first step
to change
to seeing what was there
of understanding the sphere around
this

My current class paper topic seems to be appearing everywhere. I have enough sources already people!

how to change your life in eight hours

I have never felt this good in my life, friends. I have been down, kicked around, spat upon, and all by my own doing. I have sinned. I have sinned. I have sinned against myself, against my fellow people, against the world. I have sinned in my thoughts and in my actions. I've been bad, friends. I have been to the edge, but I am back. There is a redeemer! A secret to changing your life! And that secret is ... sleep. Friends, there ain't nothing that can change your world like a good night's sleep. You have to commit, commit to those 8 hours. That's not a lot. Sleep ain't asking for your whole day. Eight hours, friends, to be a better person. Now I've been there. I've been out into the wee hours. I've been lost in the drinking and the drugs and the sex. I've stumbled home as the sun came up, and I've gone to work still drunk. I've been lost in that hazy woods. There is a way out. Sleep. Lay down your burdens! Give your problems over to that little death, and you will be reborn! Amen.

I did not get my whole 8 hours (Humidity!), but I definitely feel like a different person from yesterday. Damn, I was tired.

within me change

angry emails written
never sent
fights worth having
swallowed
trust worth building
lost

living close to yes
where hidden stays desire
self and need
absorbed into the landscape
forgotten
or remembered
taken for granted

asking for justice equity respect

start at home

Too much for me to explain.

the weak ends

the weak ends
thin draws on
comments unwanted
advice unheeded
threats looming
change to come
cannot occur
without the consent
of the changelings

Have a great weekend!